The Rift

by Nishi There is a rift In reality A mirror forms.. Instead of me I see you A glass pane of swirling illusions Missing hours Forsaken moments Water turns to gold As time dissipates You stand on the other side Reaching out Stepping back Running away Glass shards fall Brambles twine Around my feet I hear your voice Whisper Into my skin How is this? I remember your touch When it was not mine Warmth It lingers Long lost on my lips Your name The mirror cracks The edges burn I tear away from your gaze You still look at me Come to me You seek A name A face But it is not me Yet.

3am

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Nishi

3am The streetlights gleam Raindrop bokeh On my windowpane I hide under the sheets, Afraid to close my eyes A shadow passes beyond And I watch I wonder Is it you again Come back to haunt me? . I can see sometimes That the stars shine Through raging thunderclouds Are these raindrops? Are these my tears? . The lights Have abandoned me I stumble Over broken glass and dreams A black fog Fills this gutter I fell into Is it you Reaching out to me? The light blinds me Again. . Wiping grime off my face And blood off my fingers My gloves are ripped My hands dirty I look back Is it you there? A shadow follows me As I stagger away . I feel your heart stop under my fingers Your breath was lost a long time ago Sirens cut through The cold night air Crawls up my skin Paralyses my chest Fills me with silent screams . Despair I tried I believed I gave you everything I had I did this for you Now I am empty And lost . 3am And I hide under the weight Of misplaced dreams Raindrops Hit my window There are no streetlights A shadow Follows me Holds me close We have met before I pretend to sleep Away This life Where you and I Were never meant to be.

Blue

by Nishi

The minutes go by and they feel like hours, days go by and they feel like seconds. I leave to hide and watch our souls dance, but our lives seem to run away from us. Day after day, one drop of time after the next falls, each moment heavy with the silence of loneliness Ounces of moonshine and starlight do nothing to bring me out from this black hole, Though the light shining at the end of the tunnel reminds me you are here with me still, always.

Colourblind

by Nishi It's just a smokescreen It's just a haze Sand and mist over my eyes Your eyes Illusions and mirages Since forever You have seen me You have walked with me Heard me Listened to my footfalls Carried my tears around in the pockets of your heart Broken memoirs and torn pictures Of my soul in a book In your arms And I you I struggled and bared my soul I bled into my tears My weaknesses are battle grounds for you to trample on I ran needles through my veins I prostituted my joys I gave you my eyes so you see colors like me I gave away my soul and stayed within this shell So you could hold on to me And you still don't know me like I do You still don't know me How do I forgive myself? How do I not walk away?

Meet Nishi!

Nishida C. is a poet, writer, thinker and recluse. She loves anything to do with art, literature and science, especially astronomy. She is interested in writing science fiction and fantasy, especially for children, and hopes to see a few well-worn novels written by her on a library shelf one day. Her short story "The Moonfairy, the Angel and the Puca" is part of the anthology "12 Days of Christmas" published by Jim Wisneski. She is currently writing her first novel, a fantasy fairytale and is also working on a set of short literary fiction pieces. You can follow her on twitter at @CafeNirvana. http://twitter.com/CafeNirvana

Autumn

by Nishi You would wait Wouldn't you? As I swing down the tree boughs Rowing across the river to you The leaves melt into dewdrops Slithering and whispering A tale of hope Not lost As they come alive Year after year Even when they fall Triumph or loss This emptiness is not what I am It is something more I am something more You would wait, wouldn't you? I am gone you know But not so far away, that I cannot hear You Or see you I may not believe always Your ways are true But I shall follow By lanes or crossroads Running into you And then drift away You would wait Do I need to ask? Your faith has always Beaten me I wash up on shores away From your heartbeat My back turned to you I lay staring at the sun Thirsting for a freedom that evades me You would still wait, wouldn't you? © Nishida. C. 2010. Some Rights Reserved. This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution – Noncommercial - No Derivative Works 3.0 License.